Sunday, November 25, 2012


Yes. The question mark was intentional.

While at home over the holiday (which I loved, I miss my family so much) the conversation of happiness came up.  What makes a person happy?  Can anything actually make a person happy or is it an intrinsic choice?

Then Nathan and I talked about it briefly tonight.

Honestly, it confuses the snot out of me.  Right now, I have a highly intrinsically rewarding job, but it's also highly stressful.  I feel like it's affected my personal relationships, and I'm not necessarily okay with that.  Most people have been exceptionally understanding, and I appreciate that.  Does the stress go away though?  What happens if the angst cause by the stress begins to outweigh the intrinsic pleasure?

How does one even know what they're supposed to do in life?
Or is anyone even supposed to do something?  Perhaps it's all a shot in the dark and there isn't this sense of pre-determination/fate that guides a person to the "right" career choice.

And how do you know when to balance the pleasure your job brings isn't enough to compensate for the unhappiness the life outside of work brings?

This isn't to say that I am unhappy, or anything of the sort.  But the phrase "stuck" was brought up tonight and it got me thinking about how many people (myself included) often feel "stuck" in their situation.

I'm ready to go home, again.

1 comment:

  1. I'm glad you had a good break with the family, but I am sorry to hear about the stress in your life.

    I don't have any answers. Hell, I don't even know if I have started asking the right questions about happiness, yet. Most days I think the solution to my worries is to up and quit all my current plans and open a bakery/bar called, "Grandma's Kitchen--if your grandmother was an alcoholic." (Clearly, the only thing holding my dreams back is an inability to come up with a better name...)

    I can say I am looking forward to seeing you back home and talking about all of this. I miss you and our long talks whole bunches.